User blog:~Maplespots~/well um

this wiki has changed

so much

all these users are leaving, and honestly I don't know if I can really deal with it. this wiki is really important to me, and so are all its users. I would never be able to leave, no matter how many users leave because I'm so annoying.

I feel like I can trust everyone on here with this, and they won't think I'm trying to start drama. I think you all know me too well for that. so I'm going to tell you the truth, and hopefully it doesn't get me in trouble. if you don't believe me, so be it. if you ban me, or think I'm trying to cause drama, okay, I'll be fine. I guess I'll miss you, but I'll still have wattpad and other wikis and dA to contact you on. so I'm going to tell the truth.

you see, it's most likely that there's something... wrong with me. some kind of mental problem. I don't cut myself, although once or twice I have slightly considered it. I don't have any problem learning. what I do is... I get angry. I get really angry, really often. I threw a pencil at my friend the other day. my parents are finding a psychologist for me, and I'm keeping a journal, because that can help. I'm honestly trying to fix my anger issues. and they exist, honestly... take the incident with Darkeh a while ago. she deactivated her account because of me. she's never going to come back, and it's really hard to tell myself that I'll never be able to talk to her again. she was one of my closest friends, and we were even planning to meet this summer. she's not even on tumblr anymore. so... I guess you guys deserve to know this. it's for the best, since I don't want anyone else leaving because of my stupid anger spazzes.

When all this time I've been so  hollow   inside   I know you're still there 18:50, January 31, 2014 (UTC)