User blog:VladimirZayd/Please read this with open minds and hearts.

I am actually still here.. I was contemplating killing myself that day, but I decided not to. However, I had to sort myself out for a very long, long time.

I know that it might have been quite a problem for you to think that I had died, and I regret that.

On the better side, I have ceased drinking alcohol entirely, and I've gotten involved with my community.

I know that this is a lot to take in, but as I said, I do apologize for my actions in the past here.

I realize that everything I did here was just derogatory. But, I only realize this now, I come back with open mind and heart, and I hope to be able to return peacefully.

I've seen by reading the blogs on the wiki here and I see that problems are arising, and I know I can't do something about it, but what I would like to happen is that my apology may be accepted and we will all be able to mend the shards of glass that I have shattered from my actions.

All I essentially say is, that I know what I did was surely insulting, and to a point worrying. But, I was in a position of danger myself, and I went over the peak. But that was more than three-four months ago, and now I know what has to be done.

As I already stated, if I was offensive to anyone of you, or anything else I did was wrong, I'm sorry that had happened.

But I am no longer who I was before, and I have changed my thoughts and one day realized about everyone here, Many wounds have not healed, and many people are not over what had happened, but I still need to express my apology and concern so I may repair what I did.

I come back with my senses this time, and I hope you may understand.

I am returning with a sign of peace flying above me, and I hope that I will be able to join in a manner of peace, not to fight.

Sincerely composed by Zayd.